Thursday, October 20, 2005
This is not an easy update to put out on the web but it is something that I think I need to do for myself. Regular readers will have seen the entry a while ago, stating I had not updated my Blog, due to personal business that needed to be attended to.
That personal business was my own state of mind. It seems that for years I have suffered from depression without even knowing it. Things came to a head during that week, when the sheer weight of bad stuff happening to me caused me to pull the telephone from my wall on Monday morning & crawl in to my own hell.
It was only the intervention of “H” 3 days later that saved both me & my career. She took me to the doctor on Thursday morning & I was diagnosed with clinical depression. It seems that my body has a problem making an adequate supply of serotonin which leads to peaks & troughs in my moods.
I am now on medication ( No not prozac ) to help with serotonin production & I have to say I feel great. It has led me to evaluate things that have happened to me in the past & I can now easily pinpoint some of my behaviour to this illness.
There its done & its out there. I may talk more about this in later posts but for now it is enough to have made it this far.
The Lightning Seeds