Wednesday, June 04, 2008

HEARTBREAK

I am going through a period in my life where everything I say feels worthless, turning to sand in my mouth. I am powerless to alter or affect things happening that will inevitably change my life one way or the other.

I cant even go in to detail about this thing as it is too raw & too close just now.
I will write more later when I am through this part of the process.
Suffice to say it has to do with my beloved daughter & hurts to even think about discussing it.

The first emotion to mind is anger at the way it has all come about, but anger will not change a single thing. Fear is next, fear for what will happen to her, but is is strength she needs. Then compassion for what she is going through, but what I want really are answers & a strategy to deal with her problems. A 13 year old should be having fun, full of a zest for new experiences & life, out with her friends not enclosed in a darkened room.


Listening to:

Medical experts going blah blah blah...........

5 comments:

KTB said...

I hope your daughter is going to be ok.

I have a daughter too, and I can't imagine how I would feel if there was anything wrong with her.

All I can do is hope that all of you come out of it ok.

KTB

Katherine said...

David, somehow I missed this post....
So sorry to hear about this! If it helps, I am thinking of you and I hope she is already at least a little bit better when you read this...She is beautiful. But you already know that.
Cyber-hugs,
Katherine.
ps I Have one too - 17 years old.

Yorkshire Pudding said...

Caitlin looks so lovely in the photo. I can't imagine what the issue is but like Katherine I am thinking of you and sending positive vibrations your way.

Daphne said...

Yes, I'm thinking of you too - I have a daughter too and I can't bear it when she's suffering in any way: though I don't think you actually have to be a parent to imagine how dreadful it must be for you. I hope things will improve soon.

David said...

Thankyou everyone for your comments. They have been encouraging. I will write about this in more detail later. But for now thanks for your thoughts.