Friday, June 13, 2008

HEARTBREAK II

My daughter is suffering from chronic fatigue & depression.

She has not been to school for 10 weeks & is now living with me because her mother has run out of options when it comes to dealing with her.
Her routine is one of lying in bed for up to 20 hours sleeping. She is lethargic unmotivated, totally devoid of fizz & life. I have struggled with this issue, I have had the patience of Job & it is so hard to deal with. I know Caits as a feisty argumentative 13 year old with a constant gleam of mischief in her eye. That has been replaced by a girl who struggles to maintain a conversation over what she wants for dinner. I hurt for her, I wrack my mind thinking of what I can do, I ask people for strategies, a plan, ANYTHING to get her out of this world of pain she is living in.
The frustration & the torment are sometimes too much & I find myself weeping in sheer frustration because I can do nothing to help her.
I wish I could make it all go away & we could be back to how we were. But that is not going to happen & noone is going to come riding over the hill with the cavalary.
It is just me, so whatever it takes, no matter how long it takes I will be there for her, always.

Everything else sometimes seems so ordinary.

Listening to:

Pretenders " I'll stand by you "

3 comments:

Daphne said...

Thinking of you and wishing you all the best. Anything else I say seems really trite! But she does know you love her and that will help, even if it doesn't feel like it does.
Thank you for your comment on my blog - by all means put a link, thank you, and I will put one to yours on mine if that's okay.

Katherine said...

Ah, So that's it. Incredibly frustrating for you, David. Hugs. You are doing a wonderful job. Hang in there. It will get better. Just be there.

Yorkshire Pudding said...

Oh dear...I wish there was something I could say that might help but there isn't. You must remain strong for her. Strong and patient. Perhaps you could do what I am sure you did when she was little - read her a good story. All she has to do is lie in her lethargy and listen. I hope that like a flower that is closed she will blossom again. Remain strong and patient. Thinking about ya dude!